I can only recommens to get into hobbies like building dioramas, electorincs, music (there are daws like bitwig or ableton with free trials, its on the PC as well though), Start some sport, i like bouldering because you basically sit around all the time and then climb some routes and talk with friends. Or be creative with cooking! The only thing is to just start doing something new. Its always fun!
To be honest there are 4 things that combine in a bad way. Sorry if that is too forward, I don’t know you and its just what I’ve read here. So dont take it the wrong way.
- you seem to have very high expectations of yourself, which is great but you burn out quck that way. You seem to not want to give up and fail
- you seem to be stuck in your day to day rhythm
- you seem kind of burned out or depressed
- you seem to have a lack of input, variation and aktually kind of life
Try to break your day to day cycle and be kind to yourself :)
I would not even say so. It tool me maybe a weekend to und erstand the concepts. I had no other selfhosting experience before. Specialy docker compose is almost plug and play